My Silver Lining

I'm writing this while waiting for the tow truck to tow my car. Today, I cried. I finally gave in to the urge and let it all out. My car acting up AGAIN is the last straw. I just burst.

So many things have happened over the past week. I've been trying to keep it cool and to be positive despite my circumstances but I couldn't take it anymore today. I feel like I'm in a game of dominos except I'm the one the dominos are falling on.

Took a picture right after writing this post
as a reminder in the future in case I feel like giving up.

I was tempted to blame my situation on God, and I did for a split second before I caught hold of my frantic emotions. What use is there if I play the blame game? It's not going to solve my problems. Crying is not going to solve my problems too. It just makes me feel a whole lot better after I let it out.

This crisis I'm in leads me to deduce that in every challenge that we face in life, there's always a silver lining and we have to learn to recognise this silver lining no matter how elusive it is. In my case, after much thought, the silver lining in my situation is that it has given me a different retrospective of all the woes that have befallen me over the past few months.

I've been to hell and back again, and I'm still standing. God. I'm still standing. I can still think rationally. I can still be a good mother to my kids. I still have my family around me. I can still fend for myself. I know for a fact that I don't need a man just to feel good about myself. Ideas keep on pouring out of me. Everything that has happened to me has made me more resilient in the face of adversity and has opened my eyes to my persistence to achieve whatever I set my mind to. I wish I had realised this sooner but you see, life is a process and sometimes, you have to go through certain things in order to become a better version of yourself. What doesn't kill you makes you stronger, no?

Still the most stubborn woman,

SFK